Friday, November 29, 2013

Day Thirty

Project Joy Day Thirty

As a final post in my little joy experiment... I do have to say making myself reflect each day on something to be thankful and grateful for did help me to feel better. I consider myself a pretty happy person, so I don't think this was earth shattering, but it did bring into focus the fact that I have many things to be grateful for. I am a fortunate person. Each day is a gift, and we should treat it as so.

Day Twenty Nine

Project Joy Day Twenty Nine

I am thankful for Josh's willingness to drive and his defensive driving skills. He volunteered to drive all the way to Berlin, which I was grateful for because it allowed me to focus on reading my book. Ha ha. But as we got closer to Berlin the traffic got heavier and the drivers became more aggressive. Driving here would be way out of my comfort zone, and I'm sure it could have led to a meltdown or two. Although Josh says he was stressed, he wasn't showing it. I'm glad he can keep his cool.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Day Twenty Eight

Project Joy Day Twenty Eight 

Today is Thanksgiving! I really can't believe how quickly this month has passed. It doesn't seem real that Thanksgiving is here. Everyone is still sleeping while I'm awake, drinking coffee and working away on my blog. We we leave in a few hours to drive to Berlin to start another whirl-wind trip through Germany. Today won't be a typical Thanksgiving, it will be the second non-traditional Thanksgiving I've had (the first being when I was in high school and we went to a luau in Hawaii). We'll drive to Berlin (which will be about six hours if we're lucky) and then have dinner at the Berlin TV Tower. Not the typical Thanksgivings I grew up with, or that I have had in Germany the last two years... but that is okay. I have Josh, I have my parents, and I am excited for the special time we get to spend together. We have some amazing travel plans ahead of us (if I do say so myself), and I am constantly reminded and thankful of the opportunities I have while I am here in Germany. There are times that living in a foreign country where I don't fluently speak the language is frustrating and a bit scary. I have moments where I am homesick, miss my family, and want to go back to Montana. But then I remember all of the amazing things I have had a chance to see, do, and experience while I've been here - certainly more than I ever would had I stayed in Montana. I am lucky to have Josh - to me the epitome of love and patience. We are fortunate Josh has a job where he is paid, we have a safe, warm home, food to eat, and medical care. I am fortunate to have a job. We are so lucky to be able to travel like we do. I am grateful to have parents who are willing and able to come visit me - I can't tell you how many patients I have whose family has not come to visit and never will. This is my mom's fourth trip to Germany. I am a lucky, fortunate, grateful girl. Amen. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone - I hope you are as blessed as I feel.

Day Twenty Seven

Project Joy Day Twenty Seven

My parents arrived in Germany safe and sound! I am thankful for the modern technology we have to make travel possible! Although getting from Montana to Germany is a long three flight process, it is still amazing to me that people are able to travel about so freely and easily. My great-grandfather immigrated from Germany to the US, and he didn't return to Germany to see his family until the 1980s. Back in the day, the only reasonable method to travel back and forth was via boat - which was a long process. Now in about 24 hours my parents were able to get here. I am so thankful for all the things which made this possible and which kept them safe.

Day Twenty Six

Project Joy Day Twenty Six

I am thankful for those people who convince me to spoil myself. You would think based upon the travel and vacations we take that I have no problem spoiling myself. But. I'm actually a huge cheapskate, and I assure you that although we travel a lot, most of it is done on the cheap, through deals I find, and not extravagant in any way. A higher quantity than some, yes, but extravagant no. Like I had talked about during our cruise, sometimes I see things which I think are really neat and I want, but I don't buy them for myself (mainly because I'm cheap, and I'm not a huge shopper). My mom sent me an email with a link to a news article which announce that Monty Python was going to perform their first live stage show since 1980. I am a HUGE Monty Python fan. I find their material hilarious. In fact, some friends and I performed Monty Python skits at both the region and state level for drama in high school. Love Monty Python. So, the fact they were going to perform for the first time in 33 years, and I just happen to already be in Europe... well, I wanted to go. Tickets went on sale while Josh and I were working, but he spent his lunch hour hunting online for tickets. It is no surprise that the website for the ticket sales was overwhelmed, slow moving, and that tickets sold out in a matter of minutes. However, there were still some "platinum" tickets available for purchase, they were only more expensive than the regular tickets. I was bummed about not getting tickets, and was talking with one of the girls I work with about how badly I wanted to go to the show. She told me it was probably a once in a lifetime thing, and if I really liked Monty Python that much, I should probably just buy the tickets. So... I did. I kind of vomit in my mouth a little every time I think of the price tag I paid for said tickets... but the excitement I have over this amazing opportunity I have outweighs my buyers guilt. I am so glad someone convinced me to go for it.

Day Twenty Five

Project Joy Day Twenty Five 

So I'm a little behind. I have my reasons. BUT. On November 25th, I was yet again thankful for Josh because it was his birthday. Yay! Josh likes to be bashful and say he doesn't care about his birthday or it doesn't matter if we celebrate, but I secretly thinks he likes it. I like to make a big deal out of his birthday... because why not? I am so thankful he was born and found his way to me. He is such an important part of my life. Obviously. Ha ha. 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Day Twenty Four

Project Joy Day Twenty Four

Today I am thankful to know my parents will be here in just a few days. I am lucky my parents ware in a place where they are able to travel to see me. Not everyone hs family who is willing to take the time and money to come visit them in Europe. I am lucky that my parents have been able to come visit multiple times. Not only do I get to see them, but we are able to travel around as well. I am so excited for them to get here.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Day Twenty Three

Project Joy Day Twenty Three

Today, I am reminded of how thankful I am to live where we do and have the opportunities we do. I just booked a trip for us for Christmas. I was getting a bit frustrated because Josh didn't know when he would be off at Christmas time, but I knew what days I would have off. I have decided I'm doing zero hosting this year - no Thanksgiving, no Christmas. We have plans for Thanksgiving with my parents. But we didn't have any plans for Christmas, and I wanted to find something neat for us to do. I have been research for awhile, and found what I wanted to do, I was just waiting to confirm what Josh's days off were. He found out yesterday what his days off will be, and this morning I got an email offering a hotel at the exact place where I was wanting to go. It was like fate. So. For Christmas we will be going to Rotterdam in the Netherlands. Rotterdam is a place Josh has wanted to go to for awhile now - a friend's wife had told him it was the place to go. There are some interesting things to do/see around the city, and things will be open on Christmas Eve. What sold me on this Rotterdam for Christmas idea was when I found tickets for the Rotterdam Christmas Circus. Yes. Christmas. Circus. Booked. Done. BOOM. Christmas Circus.

Day Twenty Two

Project Joy Day Twenty Two

Today I am thankful for those friends who are there for you. I had a rough few days at work and was feeling down in the dumps. I am feeling homesick and, once again, feeling like I really don't have any friends over here. However, I called a good friend of mine who I haven't spoken to in awhile and had a chance to catch-up. It was exactly what I needed. I felt so much better. I love knowing that although I haven't called this friend in months and we've only been keeping in touch via Facebook, the moment I needed to talk to her, she was there for me. It was like no time had passed. I am lucky to have a friend like that.

Day Twenty One

Project Joy Day Twenty One

Another recent Facebook trend - a lot of people are posting random facts about themselves that others may not know - a type of game. I haven't yet jumped on the band wagon, but I find the lists interesting to read. This got me thinking... what would I post on my list if I made one? What is a random fact no one knows? While mentally making a list, I had a bit of a revelation. I, at the age of twenty eight, am finally comfortable in my own skin. I know myself, I know my decisions, and I am comfortable with it. Who cares what other people may say or think about my life. Who cares that I am heavier than I was in high school. I know me, and I am happy with where I am and who I am. What a huge cry from the insecurity I once felt.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Day Twenty

Project Joy Day Twenty 

Today, I am thankful for Josh again... but today I'm thankful for him being my soundboard. I feel I am able to look at a situation from both sides of an argument, and often times I can argue points on both sides of an argument. This is great when you're being a critical thinker, but it's not so great when you are trying to make a decision. It makes you indecisive, and I hate being indecisive. My indecisiveness often gives me anxiety because I start to worry I made the "wrong" choice on what I chose. Ugh, the life of me. Anyway, it helps me sometimes to talk something out - to explain the whole situations/story, and then explain what I agree with on both sides of an argument. Sometimes just hearing it out loud helps me to get a better idea of how I truly feel about a topic, or it helps me to see things more clearly. Josh is my soundboard frequently, and last night he got a real earful from me. He is an excellent soundboard because he listens without speaking (what an amazing quality... one I wish I had), and when he does speak he asks me some great thought provoking questions. I just feel better sorting out things out loud with him sometimes, and he is so good at it.

Day Nineteen

Project Joy Day Nineteen

Meh... I have no excuses... Yesterday I was thankful for finding inspiration in others. I had one of those moments when you look at someone and think, "Wow. Why can't I be more like them? I need to work on that." In this case, the thing I was inspired by was someone standing up for themselves and standing their ground. I tend to shrink away from conflict or back down when I am challenged (unless I'm really pissed off), which is a quality in myself that I don't like. I have always admired those people who know their worth and do not stand for less. I feel like too often I accept less than what I know I'm worth, or I put up with crap I don't need to put up with simply because I am afraid to speak up. I am hoping my "inspiration" can maybe give me a bit of a boost...

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Day Eighteen

Project Joy Day Eighteen 

Yesterday, I was thankful for the power of a hot shower. Need I say more? Something so simply which washes away so much - both figuratively and literally. The water washes it away, the heat relaxes, the steam opens. I do some of my best arguing (imaginary), thinking, and crying in the shower. Sometimes after a very long day it is all I need or want.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Day Seventeen

Project Joy Day Seventeen

Today, I am thankful for decorations and decorating for holidays. I love, love, love Christmas. Love it. I always have. My mom used to decorate for all holidays, but I have fond memories of how our house was decorated for Christmas. I remember helping my mom decorate our Christmas tree, setting out the nativity scene, and watching my dad hang up Christmas lights outside. We also did lots of activities throughout December to celebrate, like making sugar cookies and holiday treats. Christmas was an all-around joyful season at our house. I don't quite decorate as much as my mom did (only because I've been an "adult" for a limited time and don't have as much stuff as she does). But. I like to decorate. I get very excited about the prospect of decorating. I knew I wanted to decorate my house before my parents arrived, so I decided today was the day. I don't always love the work that goes into decorating (for instance I had to deep clean the area where I was going to put the tree), but I love the end result. I also love hanging ornaments on the tree while Christmas music plays in the background. Josh doesn't love Christmas as much as I do, but he is understanding of my love and helps out quite a bit. I'm appreciate of his help... because now my house is about 80% decorated and I am so excited.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Day Sixteen

Project Joy Day Sixteen

Today, I am grateful for the option of not following peoples' crap. Let me explain. I am a Facebook and Pinterest junkie. Great distractions and time suckers. On both of these sights I have quite a few friends, so I see a variety of posts. It is awesome to be able to decide that I don't want to see or be a part of someone's crap. To stop having someone flood my Facebook with negativity, judgemental BS, or being a whiney complainer (now there is some good English) is such a relief. When I am trying to be positive and have good feeling about life, the last thing I need is someone raining on my parade. Now everyone has tough times, and I understand that. But there are those people who always have to be unhappy or complaining about something (you know the kind of people I'm talking about). Yeah, I just don't have time for that. Or for people who are fake, which Facebook is full of. In the last few months it has been relieving to be able to remove that junk from my sight. And with Pinterst... I just love being able to see only what I want to see. Share recipes? Yes, please! Planning a birthday party for a four year old? Pass, don't want to hear about it. Religious homeschool curriculums? Not interesting to me. I love the control I have and the relief this control has brought me.

Day Fifteen

Project Joy Day Fifteen

Yesterday was an awful day at work. One of those days where you feel about an inch tall. When I got home I knew I needed to write my grateful blog post, and it probably would have helped me feel better and get over the day. I didn't want to. But. This morning, I am thankful for second chances. I woke up knowing that yesterday was done, today was new, and I get to try again. Seriously, how miraculous are second chances? Every single day we wake up with a clean slate to start over. To try harder. Work more. Do better. Whatever happened before is in the past and cannot be changed, so now you get another shot at it. Every. Single. Day. Not just one second chance, but multiple, infinite second chances. I'm feeling better already.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Day Fourteen

Project Joy Day Fourteen

Today, I am thankful for Josh. Again, a post which was coming at some point... I am thankful for Josh because he's a good partner and a good balance. When I work late, or am being lazy, or have a headache he is more than willing to do his fair share. Many nights recently he has made dinner, cleaned up, and generally taken charge so I haven't had to. It is nice when I get home tired and worn out that dinner is done. It makes for less I have to worry about. It is nice to have someone who understands this and is willing and able to step up and help. I'm so grateful for his help.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Day Thirteen

Project Joy Day Thirteen 

Today I am thankful for my massage therapist. What a skilled, gifted person with the ability to heal. I was in major need of some help today and was so grateful of my time with her. Some people are blessed and destined for their profession, and thank goodness for them.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Day Twelve

Project Joy Day Twelve 

Continuing on a bit from yesterday's thought.. Today I am thankful for the things we are able to do - in this case I'm talking specifically about the ability to buy gifts for others. I can remember times in my life when I was in college, or first starting out working, when I had a pretty tight budget and was always searching for the cheapest possible present for people to get the most bang for my buck. I remember wishing I could get people something special, something bigger, something they really wanted... but it just wasn't possible for me to do at that time. There is definitely a part of me who is a cheap sake and I am always trying to find good deals. But now I am able to have a bit of a bigger budget, I can get people something more expensive if that is what they are wanting. I am also able to include more people in my gift giving circle - although sometimes living overseas with shipping this closes my circle quiet a bit as well. I have dear friends whom I haven't sent a Christmas gift to in years (whoops). Yesterday we spent part of our day out Christmas shopping for some friends and had a blast picking out toys and games. It felt so good to know we are able to spoil other people, and to know they will enjoy what we are sending. So I am thankful to be able to share with others. 

Monday, November 11, 2013

Day Eleven

Project Joy Day Eleven 

Another obvious one, but today I am grateful for veterans. Many men and women serve our country selflessly, and it is because of their sacrifices that we are able to enjoy the freedoms we have. It is not just the soldiers, airmen, and seamen who serve, but their families who support those serving and make sacrifices as well - their sacrifices are probably some of the greatest. So many people who work to provide our freedom - not just those currently serving, but those who served in the past, and those who will serve in the future. We should be grateful, proud, and thankful for those people who provide for our freedom and safety. I am so grateful for the journey the military has taken me on. I have been provided with some amazing opportunities because of where we live. I am thankful for Josh to have a job which provides for us.
Land of the free because of the brave.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Day Ten

Project Joy Day Ten 

Today I am thankful for my cats. You knew this was coming at some point, right? Ha ha. But I am serious. There is something special about the unconditional love and affection of a pet that can lift your spirits, making a bad day seem better. When I get home from work and I'm tired, worn out, and all I want to do is go to bed I'm met with such eager little faces which ask for pets. It melts my heart every time. One of my favorite morning rituals is spending time with Vega. Even on work days I spend some time with her sitting on my living room floor drinking coffee while I brush her. She loves it, and I enjoy the quiet time I have by myself each morning. It makes for a calm start to the day. On the days I work I am only able to hang out about 20 minutes - this does mean I'm up 20 minutes earlier than I need to be, but to me it is worth it. On non-work days like today my coffee/brush time with Vega can stretch out as long as she wants. Right now I'm enjoying my second cup of coffee, and the house is quiet except for the sound of Vega's purrs. I feel relaxed, happy, and content. Not to mention loved. I am so grateful for these moments I get to have.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Day Nine

Project Joy Day Nine

Today I am grateful for those people in your life who are cheerleaders. Cheerleaders come in all shapes, sizes, and forms. Some cheerleaders are expected (parents) but some come out of the blue. Cheerleaders amp you up, calm your fears, push you harder, and ease your disappointments. I am fortunate to have many cheerleaders in my life, and I've encountered many surprise/unexpected cheerleaders recently. It is such a feeling to know you're not doing it alone.

Day Eight

Project Joy Day Eight

A day late and a dollar short. But, yesterday on the real day eight I was thankful for my best friend Jen. I have known Jen since I was three and we grew up on the same street. Not all childhood friends stay friends. Sometimes they grow apart. We haven't. Although my living overseas can sometimes make communicating difficult, or we go through longer times without talking, I know that no matter what she is there. Even if it has been months since we've spoke on the phone, if I really need here she is there, no questions asked. Yesterday was her birthday, and I was feeling a bit sad I wasn't there to share it with her. But instead I channeled those emotions into being grateful for having an amazing lifelong friend.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Day Seven

Project Joy Day Seven 

Today I'm thankful for lazy days. I'm thankful to have a day off to simply relax, be lazy, and do nothing (if I so choose). Every once and awhile it is so welcome to feel like there is nothing I absolutely have to do and I can simply decompress.

Day Six

Project Joy Day Six 

I was bound to be late at some point... it was a little earlier than I thought it would be.
I am thankful for anti-inflammatories! Whoever discovered/invented these is an absolute genius! Seriously. With my job and posture, Lord knows I wouldn't make it without ibuprofen. With my back, I have been needing it.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Day Five

Project Joy Day Five 

Today I am thankful for a second alarm. I swear I set my alarm on my cell phone last night like I always do. But I guess I must have done something wrong because it didn't go off this morning. I was snug and comfy in bed thinking I still had time to snooze when I heard Josh's alarm go off - 30 minutes after my wake up time. While it was no fun rushing to get ready, I am grateful I wasn't late for work.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Day Four

Project Joy Day Four

Today I am thankful for my co-workers - especially a select few who are exceptionally amazing. My office manager, aside from being my friend outside of work, is a person who is fair and who truly has my back as an employee. It is nice to know I have someone who will really protect me or go to bat for me if need be. I also work with a group of people who are fun, kind, and who lift my spirits everyday when I'm at work. Even if I'm not having the best day, they make my day better with their love. It is wonderful to feel  you are in a supportive, positive environment.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Day Three

Project Joy Day Three

Today I am thankful for those random moments of motivation. Today I finally found the motivation I have needed to complete projects which have been on my list for weeks months. Minor things which were not fun, such as sorting through glass recycling. But it is always great to have those moments where a fire is lit under your ass for some reason and you plow through everything on your list. I love days like that - they don't happen as often as I'd like. I even had time to relax and be lazy the way I like to on Sundays.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Day Two

Project Joy Day Two

Today I am thankful for retrospect. There was a time early in my career when I was fresh out of school where I began to doubt my judgement and abilities. Let me rephrase that - other people's questioning of my abilities made me question myself. Other people's doubt made me begin to doubt myself. What I should have done was block those negative voices out and pushed on to prove to them what I already knew - I could do it. I was good enough. But instead I let those seeds of doubt blossom into more doubt, anxiety, and general distrust of myself and my skills. It took a long time before I finally came full circle to feel confident in myself once again. Today I received a compliment about my skills from a patient, and it made me realize how I have come around - not that my skills were never there, but that my confidence is solid now. It makes me realize it wasn't me who wasn't good enough. I was always good enough, they just didn't see it. But I see it now. I am so thankful to no longer have those feelings of doubt and to feel confident, competent, and happy in my job.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Day One

Project Joy Day One

Today I am thankful for selflessness. In this case I'm talking about selflessness in others. Many times today I had people do something which helped me and made my day smoother. These things weren't huge, no kidneys were donated, but they were certainly things the other person didn't want to do. These actions were, in some cases, inconvenient to the selfless do-er. But, they did something "from the good of their heart" to help me. It made things go smoother for me, or made me feel special or important. Something I can thing about to be more selfless myself.